About a week and a half ago, I decided I was healthy enough to reduce my Gabapentin from 300mg to 200mg per day. I had little difficulty going from 900 to 300 mg a day many months ago. I had been exercising, reading, and writing more. I was feeling pretty good. A week into reducing the dosage, I was struck with more headaches, increased neurological pain, reduced proprioception and feeling in my right foot, body jerking, extreme bouts of fatigue, and cog fog. I decided to check in with my doctor and she has suggested I continue for another month with the 200mg and see if my body adjusts.
In the meantime, there have been moments that I have been ready to give up and increase pain medication, or go back to 300mg, or skip meditation. I have thought about what I have written here on the blog. I have contemplated what it means to ‘live by your words’; to be accountable to myself and others. This has been the beauty of blogging. I have made a new friend or two, received great feedback, learned new information, and now I am keeping my next goal in check by virtue of my own history in print.
I often read tweets posted by people who are stroke and traumatic brain injury survivors. I understand how difficult and tiring it can be to maintain the kind of stamina that is required to improve one’s health. However, I can tell you that I have never felt worse and have always felt better (honestly) after a meditation session even if it is brief. I have mentioned this before, but do check out YouTube. There is a plethora of guided meditations if you prefer that over silence. There are a variety of meditation apps, too. Check out this link for info http://www.healthline.com/health-slideshow/top-meditation-iphone-android-apps An app not mentioned in the link is Insight Timer, which is free and you get to connect with people around the world who are meditating with you.
So, I shall take my own advice and persist in training my brain as best I can with meditation, nutrition, exercise, medication, and awareness that I will have to remain very cognisant about my body, mind, and spirit’s balance between an end goal and the journey. Wish me luck 🙂